deleting this, no really. i have a wordpress now and it's way better. but i have no phone or computer (again) so i prob won't update it anytime soon.

so i think i'm getting another tattoo. i've been planning it for awhile and i don't think i've told anyone yet so i'm going to hold out until i actually get it. but i'm really bad at keeping my own secrets so i'll probably tell someone. it's cheesy but i think it's cute cheesy.

UP was the cutest movie i've ever seen. not exaggerating. it was based around a romance story which was cuter than any non-animated movie. (like you've got mail, or the lake house, or any other love-at-first-sight or we-have-nothing-really-in-common-except-this-one-thing types of movies.) final note about the movie: i wish rory had a collar that put a voice to her thoughts.

I CAN'T STOP EATING LATELY!!!!

guess what? I AM TYPING FROM MY COMPUTER!!!! as in, my power cord finally came! i am soooooososososososos happy. now i can go back to obsessively planning my wedding. (in case you didn't know, i have a file on my computer documenting everything about my wedding so i couldn't add to it while it was dead.)

i have a 401(k)? haha. insane.

i'm trying to drink a margarita tonight and no one will answer me. i NEVER want to drink unless i'm getting drunk, but i totally am in the mood. jon wants me to go to the grocery store but i'd rather die. i'd actually rather do it on saturday... so i probably will.


oh also, all i can think about is wal-mart lately and how much it fucks our economy. not just that, but how usually the conservatives who hate on illegal immigrants also seem to incessantly shop there. i have been diving back into the political scene (i took a serious hiatus once i graduated) and i'm a little pissed off about a lot of things, obama stuff included. but really though, don't shop at wal-mart... you really shouldn't bitch about something you can't control when you aren't even controlling something you're able to.

i am so boring because i don't have a computer and can never update! and even if i could, i have nothing to talk about. rory is tearing things up again but i don't blame her, we go on daily walks and thats about the only excitement she gets other than abbey walking into my room or a dog going down the stairs. i also have received over $3000 in a month for the work i've been doing unpaid for nearly 5 months. its nice because now i can get my hair cut but it isnt nice because it still doesn't pay off my credit card debt. i would give anything to not have to tell my parents, but when they start wondering where an extra $300 a month is going i'm sure it will come up.

dean and tori are my new fave couple. dean is the man every man should strive to be, in my opinion.


oh something funny... at the memorial tournament this weekend, jon and i totally fell asleep while sitting on the 3rd hole, and my mouth was wide open as the passerbys saw and thought i was an alcoholic. i really was just tired though. and after that we went to the bar and proceeded to drink 4 gin and tonics respectively which turned into a slapping fight while sitting at a table amidst the upper-middle classeers.

why does my house always turn into a shithouse less than a week after i hXc clean it? BLAH! i will be cleaning tonight for a good 2 hours in order to get it back to where it was... minus the vacuuming because i only do that when i'm in a REALLY good mood.

i LOOOOOOOVE working 40 hours a week. it is giving me a schedule to stick to and i love it. i love packing my lunch and i love making money obv. i also love business casual and talking to new people all the time.

i think i have to get rid of rory. i'd rather lose a limb, i wish that was an option.


lacrosse is over on wednesday officially, as in no more banquets or meetings or ceremonies or games or anything. i'm pretty sure i've decided not to come back. i just received my contract and i made so much less than what i thought so screw that.

oh and since this blog is blocked........... kate, ask jen if she still has my piece.

i feel horrible about myself. i am looking at pictures from last night right now almost in tears. i mean, i've felt bad about certain pictures from time to time but it's honestly usually my complexion rather than my body. this is the heaviest i've ever weighed. EVER. i know it's because i'm in a relationship and i'm happy and don't feel any pressure to appeal to anyone else, but it's gotten out of hand. i am MORTIFIED. and it's mainly my arms/face/stomach, and i'm usually concerned about my legs/ass. so weird. fuck this. i should be starting training for my NEW half marathon soon so i'm sure that will help.
GOD
DAMMIT.

new things

job, some friends, doggie demeanor, priorities, relationship outlook, bedtime.

i can't stop reading! i feel like i've gone through 3 books in a month. because i have. which is very unlike me! i'm sure it'll fade fast.


my parents are mad at me, and whenever they are nothing feels right.